In recent years, the Black Lives Matter movement has successfully pushed racial inequality and police brutality onto the national stage. Depressingly, institutional change has yet to follow suit. Here, afrofuturist writer Russell Nichols imagines a future where advanced technology—not social change—ushers in a controversial response to the epidemic of racial violence.
Mar 20, 11:13 PMu wont remember dying
Mar 20, 11:13 PMu wont remember dying
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sed the post-mortem counselorhe sed u will get flashes tho deja vu type shit phantom painwhere the nitestick broke my ribs, a punch 2 the gut, etcmore like pieces of a faded dream he sedscenes from a movie u saw when u were little but cant remember what its called so u cant check 2 c if its real or not but whateverman they aint got no good movies here only a foldup vr mask 2 make u think ur lying on a beach not on a damn hospital bedsomebody left behind this ripped book by sum oldass white dude named walt whitman looking like a smoked out santadamn i hope i dont die of boredom b4 the transfer in 3 daysi cant believe im hereits almost midnite i should b sleep rite now but i cantif i couldnt sleep the counselor told me 2 "text myself"meaning uthe man says im in shock and he thinks im depressed hahai told him i aint depressed im fuckin dying; but he sed texting u mite help me b positivene thing 2 take my mind off getting shotMar 21, 9:42 AMim all alone againthe fam just left 2 grab breakfasti cant lie its weird af texting u cuz im texting my future selfon sum real time travel shitthey say ur long-term memories should kick in by wk 2but u wont remember dyingi was just tryna get to the moviesminding my ownthe shot!doc sed u mite hear auditory hallucinations, echoes of the shot or that pig screaming in ur ear or sirenslike u kno when u feel ur cell vibrating in ur pocket but nobody called?
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but u wont feel the actual bullet go thru ur headlucky ubut the doc who did the ct scan told me the damage coulda been 100x worse if the bullet exploded or bounced around in my skull fuckin my brain tissue all the way upif my glasgow coma scale was under 7 i couldnt do the direct transfer but i was conscious enoughhe sed my number was 10if i was in a coma they woulda had 2 animate u using my last backup from over a yr agomoms damn near crashed when she found out i aint backed up in a yrshe sed all 3 of us -- me nick and lionel -- shoulda been backing up once a month and me being 15 and the oldest need to "do better"my man spiders pops signed him up during 1st NR enrollmenthe went 2 the clinic on san pablo every tues after school 2 do his memory uploadu wont meet spider thohe killed himself last julyRIPyo i think the sedatives kicking in bruhstarting 2 c doublethat bullet really glitxhed me up good flew up thru my rite brain then straight outa "thru-and-thru" doc called itmy bodys killing me i can text wit my rite hand but i cant talkMar 21, 7:26 PMguess whos backthe fam just left 4 dinner cuz they cant take this hospital 4mula shitdoc called this "a blend of superfoods liquified 4 max absorption" haha i sed max absorption my ass this slop look regurgitated like a mfdoc gave me sumthin called a memory inhibitor 2 block everything since i got here yesterday so u wont remember none of this
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cuz it would b 2 fuckin traumaticlucky une way im bored aint nuthin else 2 do no movies and my eyes hurt 2 much and vr makes my head hurt sowho the fuck walt whitman think he is? i sing the body electric? wtf like a robot sing-a-longall he writes is flowers and trees and happy springtime shitheres a pic:
gtfoh!on the back theres a big quote that says "[Whitman] is America" and im like what americayo i did watch that New Reconstruction documentary earlieru believe its been 3 yrs?98% success rate so thats good but its only been 12 transfers so faru make 13but dont worry bruh its anonymous nowit was causing a media circus @ 1st wit all the hour specials and daytime talk interviews and late show bs wit the hosts asking stupidass questions:"do u still hav a birthmark?"wtf is up wit this country?1 network tried 2 set up a reality show but the feds shut that down quick saying it would send the "wrong message"they didnt say nuthin else but we all knew "wrong message" was code 4 "anti-police message"spiders pops sed "its good these black kids get 2 come back 2 life but @ the same time they shouldnt b getting killed by no fascist cops in the 1st place and best believe they just gonna end up shot again if the real problem aint dealt witi cant argue wit thati cant argue @ alli cant even talki cant feel my left leg and i gotta wear a fuckin bib cuz i keep droolingyo the boys will freak out when they c u tho
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actually i take that back lionel mite take a minute 2 adapt but nick wontsince moms told him about NR little homie been on his research grindmoms sed all day he been on them $1m words talking bout "re-con-sti-tute" and "con-scious-ness"matter fact just this morning nick let me hear his science reporti recorded him since i kno u wont remember thishere check out this vid:["Dolly was a female sheep, the first animal to be cloned from an adult cell. Back in the 1990s, scientists in Scotland used a cell from another sheep's mam-ma-ry gland to create Dolly. In female mammals, mam-ma-ry glands are where the milk comes from. And where the word mammal comes from, too. For this project, I will be—"]he told me he got a B+ cuz his 5th grade teach sed he left out how dolly was put down b4 she turned 7 from lung diseasenick had me dying; he was like "i dont c y thats a big deal cuz if she could b cloned once, she could b cloned again so it didnt matter if she died"i asked him if my life matteredhe sed "ur life matters but death dont matter cuz u can keep coming back as many times as u want"i wanted 2 tell him it didnt work that way that aint what i meant but i was drifting in and out cuz this was rite after they gave me the memory inhibitor so i just told him dont ever take life 4 grantedhe sed "no doubt" then took his B+ like a man and sed he would "do better next time"i sed me 2Mar 21, 11:58 PM
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WTF!!!i cant sleepits on me i never shoulda read this damn whitman againcheck this 1 out:
idk wtf he on but it got me thinking bout my man spideri wonder what he was thinking b4 he shot himselfi remember he used 2 say he didnt want the pigs having power over himhe sed shit like that all the time:"the whole recon programs a setup giving those appointed 2 'serve and protect' free rein 2 fire @ will""the american dream is santa claus 4 grownups""2 b born black in america is a death sentence"the bullet went in but never came out@ the funeral his pops sed he was battling severe depressionyo i knew spider all my life and i kno fa sho he ain't hav no depressionwtf is depression ne way? u either alive or deadaint no inbetweennow spiders gone but im still hereholding on by a threadY U???y u get to live when everybody else keep dying?y u so lucky?moms sed its gods will but idk that dont make sense 2 me but im scared 4 u bruhstraight up all that pressure u gonna feel2 make ur life matter2 show u deserve a 2nd chance2 prove u alive for a reasoneverybody gonna c rite thru u call u a fake a phonya scarecrowa black body without a braintheyll b like "that nigga aint real"FUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK MY LIFE!i should just pull the plug rite nowsave u the troublei dont deserve to come back to lifebut i dont wanna b inbetweenMar 22, 5:02 AMyo disregard those texts from last nite i was on sum other shitne way 2days transfer day
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in 3 hrs u will b herein the fleshand ill b historyguess im supposed 2 say sumthin uplifting but im losing my mindand my bodys killing meeverythings darkcloudyi feel like im drooling my life awayhell tbh i dont kno how 2 b positivelets c if mr fuckin america got ne jewels 2 drop
hahayo that 1 kinda works thobut still u and i kno it aint the whole truthand if u dont remember nuthin else remember this:whitman aint americawhitman aint reali am/u r